Pregnancy and Birth

Those who follow my blog know that I conceived after  8 years of battle with infertility. It was a such a happy moment I couldn’t believe it at first. My husband was overjoyed. So were my in-laws and my mother.

Our joy was short lived when a 2 months scan revealed that uterus is compartmentalised. My uterus was 8 shaped with head in one and body in other compartment. My radiologist said he hadn’t seen a case like this. Miraculously it rectified by itself by the time of subsequent scan. After that my pregnancy was a breeze. But delivery was a different ballgame. I had to go for a emergency c section one day after due date. Baby’s umbilical cord was wrapped around it’s neck 5 times! The doctor and nurses panicked a little but somehow delivered safely. my baby boy. We thought the worst was over but soon after the doctor left I suffered from post-partum haemorrhage. I could see and hold my baby only the next day.

From that day on my life has changed for the better. The new experiences of being a mom was a bit overwhelming. I couldn’t breastfeed initially. For 2 weeks my son was formula fed. But then I could nurse my baby. At 12 weeks , when we went for a vaccination, my paediatrician scared us saying my son is isn’t smiling socially. He’s not normal! To hell with such unethical doctors who scare patients unnecessarily. She caused so much anguish and made us spend thousands of rupees on unnecessary tests. My baby did start to smile after a few weeks and it’s such a beauty!

My son is now 10 months old. He’s the apple of my eye. The sunshine in my life. The proverbial light at the end of my infertility tunnel.

Thanks for reading!

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Happy Ending!

I haven’t updated for more than a year. I have been busy.

I underwent FET in Nov 2016 and it was successful!

Long story short, I delivered a baby boy in July 2017. I wish all my infertile friends baby dust. Surely there’s light at the end of the tunnel. I suffered infertility for 8 years before conceiving for the first time ever at the ripe age of 38. If I can do it, so can you.

More details about my journey of pregnancy and how I am handling my motherhood in future posts!

Thanks all.

FET 1&2

In the first week of July I went to the doctor for my FET. I started taking Estradiol medicines but unfortunately I got fever on Day 11. I was in the hospital for  my consultation and scanning when I felt chilly and feverish. I thought it was the high AC in the waiting room so I went out to the balcony for some sun.

I got my temperature checked and it was 99 dec C. It got worse. When I was taking my intralipid infusion I was definitely feeling chilly and miserable. In the past the infusion felt very painful but this time I was more concerned about my feverishness. Anyway after I got home my temperature was 103 dec C. It turned out to be viral.

I thought let me suspend my FET and continue next month. But I got a call from the hospital saying I can take a medicine for 5 days and that will induce my period and I can start FET.

I wanted to wait for another month. So fingers crossed for FET this time.

Milestones

I turned 37 last month. Will be completing 8 years of married life tomorrow and also 8 years of trying to have a baby. So, yay….

Yesterday Aunt Flo came in….DH was upset….

I realised something… I am upset about infertility but I think I can live with it. What I can’t live without is DH’s support. He snapped at me quite a few times yesterday and today. That hurt more than my cramps, irritability and painful period.

Worst comes to worst, I think I will reconcile to the fact that we may never become parents, but I fear DH can’t come to terms with it.

Both of us feel like such failures. Especially since recently DH’s cousin had his second baby and we both got married around the same time. Don’t feel like celebrating our anniversary. I am thinking it’s anniversary, nothing ‘happy’ about it.

Update

I didn’t write for sometime. I had my second IVF in February this year and it failed.

We had two grade B embryos. Doctor said we’ll transfer one and freeze the other. She said the embryo was of good quality, like a text book example. Anyway, when we went to see her in March, she said we’ll do the FET and if that fails, we’ll go for a ERA test (Endometrial Receptive Array).

I wanted to take a break for a few months. I will go back in July. The last two months have been such a relief. Not having to inject myself and not worrying about every little bodily change and wondering if that’s a pregnancy symptom.

I am thinking one FET and failing which one more IVF. That’s it. After that it’s the end to this financial and emotional roller coaster.